So I had conversations with someone tonight, and let's say it was good to talk to them, since I hadn't talked to them in awhile. But, on the other hand it brings up so many things that reminds you why you don't talk very often.
How do you love a person so much, but can't figure out a way to coexist with them? No I am not talking about you Jessica, or our monkey of a son Kyle. You have that love that can't ever go away, but than you think how much you want it to go away and hope that you had never associated with it. Why do we keep trying even though it always ends up the same? How do you let go and not care? I know I will feel better if I do. But yet, I can't! Where do you draw the line and how do you move on from it?
Okay, there you go. I am done on that subject!
Here is some lyrics from a 90's song "Wear Sunscreen" that I heard again recently, and it is corny but true.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh never mind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out. Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
Just simple things to think about! If only we could live our lives that way, with no worries and not stress about petty things, or money, or caring what other people think or do. How productive would I be if I didn't have all that on my mind? Or would I?
I know that no matter what happens, and how ever long I have to put up with it, I will always have the center to fall back on. That SURE thing in this crazy world, it is kind of like my "sunscreen" if I wear it, I won't be burned by the craziness of everything else!
Thoughts from Cole. Thank you for listening, writing them out helps me to not go crazy! Onemore thing, I just had to add this website for anyone thinks they have had a bad day like me. It can't be as bad as these. www.fmylife.com